Little Miss Perfect
My lungs are struggling
Collapsing
Screaming
I need to breathe
To breathe in fresh air
Unpolluted
By expectations
And breathe out the
Toxic thoughts
The excruciating pain
Of my reality
I want to scream
Scream
Scream
Inside
My heart is bleeding
Slowly
Crushed by the world
Outside
Or inside
It does not matter
There is no escape
For outside becomes
Inside
And inside becomes outside
As I struggle
Too weird
Or not weird enough
Exceptional
Little miss perfect
Words that cause
Anger spills
Slick like oil
Flowing from my lips
From the pain
Rooted deep inside
Ever present
Never extinguished
Eternal flame
But when this anger
Is revealed
So vibrant
So powerful
So painful
Unbelievably painful
It is mocked
Ridiculed
Ripped apart into
Thousands of pieces
Because it is
Exaggerated
Fake
And so I lock it
Inside
Deep inside
Oh little miss perfect
Outside flowing in
Heart bleeding
Lungs collapsing
Holding in my screams
How much longer can it be?